June 08, 2005

I can't be shrinking all the time!!!

I met Lao-ge just now. It's been awhile since we last met up for a drink and some good catching up. He passed a remark that got me depressed momentarily and got me started on trying to defend myself and then, of cos, told him 'forget it, let's not talk about this issue anymore'.

He said, 'You look thinner than the last time I saw you.' Now, he says that every time we meet! So, how true can that be? If he's right everytime, I should be as heavy as a fly now! So, he qualified and said that he thought I was looking my best late last year. I looked more, I quote him, proportionate. Well? Thank you.

I honestly think it's to do with my clothes. Sometimes I wear clothes that flatter me more, sometimes I don't. Sometimes I wear clothes that conceal the fact that I've rather long limbs (yes, long legs... nananibooboo) and a shorter upper torso. Sometimes I feel like, well, just wearing something, anything for modesty's sake.

But! Whatever the case, I am going to resume my morning-and-night-milk. Cos the last time I found myself gaining a miserable 2 kg, I was drinking milk everyday.. and quite a number of cheesecakes.

xxx

What do I want?

Lao-ge said he used to know what I want when he just got to know me. That was 7 years ago. He asked what do I want, in a partner. He couldn't tell now.

I asked him what did he think I wanted 7 years ago?

He said I was more innocent and naive then. I probably wanted a fairytale like romance, an idealistic relationship. He's probably right. And, in many ways, I think I had those.

For now, I want nothing more than to be responsible for my own happiness and stay on my 'earthing line' and the good company of a few cherished ones, like himself.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:57